- will the baby ever sleep through the night?
- will the kids ever learn to speak kindly rather than scream?
- no matter how much I work, the chores are never really done
- when will I see growth in battling this sin area?
- everything is changing - could someone please stop this crazy ride? I'd like to get off, please!
So, what do I do with this?
- I go to my knees - the first step is seeing sin for what it is and repenting of it. For me, I'm aware that my own desire for comfort and ease is looming large in my eyes. Comfort and ease, however, are not what I am called to - I am called to a cross.
- I go to the Word - we serve a God who has made Himself known to us in the Bible. That's amazing, when you really think about it. He Himself has said that "all Scripture is God-breathed and useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness, so that the man (or woman!) of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work." (2 Tim 3:16-17) In order to battle my discouragement and pride, I can be reminded:
- not to grow weary, for in due season, I will reap a harvest of righteousness (Gal 6:9)
- that even Jesus came, not to be served but to serve others, with his very life (Mark 10:45)
- that following Jesus means not a stroll through a garden but the carrying of a cross (Luke 9:23)
- that Jesus knows and understands my weakness, and He has made a way to come before the Father for help and hope (Heb 4:15-16)
- I get busy - I do not live in a vacuum or a high-walled nunnery (sounds peaceful, though!), but in a house with 7 other sinners, in a church with needs, in a community that needs to see the love of Jesus demonstrated. The more time I spend sulking and navel-gazing, the less I am attending to the needs of those around me. All these imperfect, needy people around me (who aren't nearly as needy and imperfect as I am)? They are not interruptions to my real life - they are real life, and I am less likely to be distracted by all that I would do differently if I rolled up my sleeves and got busy with the work at hand.