For the first time in a long time, Christmas has been more about the waiting, the looking, the anticipation this year. Though the to-do list remains, it doesn't weigh on my heart and mind nearly as much as the 8-pound baby boy we celebrate. He continues to clear a path to the manger...
Between the crazy people within the house and the suburban critters without, this life of ours is pretty wild, indeed.
Friday, December 23, 2011
It looks like Christmas
For the first time in a long time, Christmas has been more about the waiting, the looking, the anticipation this year. Though the to-do list remains, it doesn't weigh on my heart and mind nearly as much as the 8-pound baby boy we celebrate. He continues to clear a path to the manger...
Thursday, December 22, 2011
For the kids, by the kids
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Christmas Knitting
Monday, December 19, 2011
Multitude Mondays
- Seeing Ellie really swimming on her own
- Seeing Anna really give her best at public speaking
- fun Christmas parties
- our new Senior Pastor!
- celebrating my Mom's 60th birthday at her surprise party - that was actually a surprise!
- watching the kids play Red Rover from my spot by the fire
- how the big kids so often let the little kids win
- babies that sleep in your arms
- the end of Christmas shopping
- waking up early in a cold, quiet house
- fresh coffee
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Finding the counter
Monday, December 12, 2011
Multitude Monday
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Trying to Breathe
It's happening.
Despite doing my best to keep on top of all that comes with the Christmas season and all that we've turned it into, I'm gasping for air.
I don't yet feel like there's no time (I think I've got another couple weeks before that feeling slides in), but it's more that everything's happening at once. In a family of 5 children, 3 of which are homeschooling, there's a general, everyday sense of keeping those juggling balls in the air, but adding in the extra shopping, the extra cooking, the extra self-imposed craft deadlines (how's that for a joykill?), the parties and events, the decorating, and the determination to do fun things with the kids rather than sidelining them for my whirling-dervish routine, has steadily been working at edging out the whole purpose of why we do this.
And why do we do this? Not the "Jesus is the Reason for the Season"- this, but the crazy-this? Is Jesus the reason I make myself crazy with the to-do list? Not really. He never asked for all this, never suggested that the calendar overflow along with the cup. I think I do it because I like it. I like seeing people, cooking, making things for myself and others, and trying to make this time of year special. But I'm finding that when it's all about me, what I'd like to accomplish and do, then it's no longer about Jesus. And, I have to face it; I'm not a worthy substitute.
So, am I going to stop the world and get off for a while? I don't think so. After all, I really do enjoy a lot of what I'm doing. But I'm going to be more selective, weighing the worth of my investments to their eventual payoff. Part of me wants my kids to say when they are grown, "Christmas, growing up, was really fun and full of excitement", but if that's all they say, then I've essentially humanized the holiday and lost its wonder and power. What I'd love to hear is, "Part of the reason I love Christmas now is because my parents showed me the joy of Jesus". If I'm not careful, what they'll really say is, "My mom made Christmas an exercise in chaos and the need for anger management because of overestimating her abilities and underestimating the need for peace." Who wants that?
I want to see Jesus this Christmas. I want to look expectantly to Christmas morning, not for stuff under the tree, but for the baby who came to save me from all the nonsense I would attach to His birthday, and so much more. I want my kids to see Jesus, too – to find Him more wonderful than the tree and the lights and the gifts. So everything I do to make this time special must point to Him, since He really is the reason for this season. I'm confident He'll fill my lungs with breath and my heart with the love I need for this task.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Multitude Mondays
- an early Christmas gift - a new laptop
- my Care Group (church home group)
- a freshly organized cupboard (finally finding things - can't beat it!)
- both girls gave impromptu speeches without distress (a major grace, this!)
- the Christmas tree is up and decorated!
- the nice men our housing association sent to take care of a precarious dead pine behind our property
- having a really nice mail man
- the ability to do so much shopping online
- a smooth dentist visit for my big girl
- playing games with a neighbor
- having a laugh at Toby's work Christmas party